Alfie 27-02-1999 to 24-05-2011

My dog, Alfie, passed away after a long illness last week. While we knew it was coming it was really tough to have it happen. Here are a few photos from the last few months as well as a video from a few years ago. The first two photos are the day before my wedding, and the last one is three weeks before he died. The day he died was my 6 month anniversary.

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9am on a sunday

which means it’s random meme time because i’m bored. So!

01. Make a list of five things you can see without getting up. So many things, so little time. A tank of sea monkey’s. Rogue figurine, Serenity keyring (still in box), my whiteboard with an empty schedule written on it and yesterdays rubbish (can, packaging etc)

02. How do you style your hair? I tie it back into a bun/half ponytail thing

03. What are you wearing now? …underwear, nightie, fleece blanket because it’s cold, kitten slippers.

04. What’s your occupation? Writer, Editor, housewife, maniac

05. What do you hear right now? The hum of my laptop, me typing, one bird outside singing.

06. What’s your favorite guilty pleasure treat? everything i eat is a guilty pleasure but probably doritos.

07. Are you hungry? i guess. it’s hard to tell sometimes unless i eat something. i know, i’m weird.

08. Write the first word that comes to your mind. poltigeist. *shrugs*

09. Dog person or cat person? Both.

10. What song is currently stuck in your head? Over the Hills and Far Away by Nightwish

11. What was the last thing you bought? uhmm food.

12. If you could afford to go anywhere in the world, where would you go? I honestly don’t know. I would love to go see the northen lights, stonehenge, the aztez or mayan ruins, the Nazca lines, an active volcano, any where interesting really.

13. Where do you see yourself in 5 minutes? Still sitting here. Probably pulling up somethign to watch.

14. Last book you read? Mediator book 6- Heaven Sent by Meg Cabot. Love that series.

15. What are you doing this weekend? Today is sunday so apparently not a lot.

16. If you could play any musical instrument, which one would you play? i would have loved to be able to carry on with the violin but i guess guitar.

17. How are you? Sleepy

18. What are you looking forward to the most? Today? this week? in life? I don’t know. I guess i look forward to the day i publish my novel.

Lyrics again

Been on a bit of Young Adult theme since i stumbled over all my old documents and pictures on my parents computer. Weird as hell to see your life from 2006 and before. The things you were into, the music you listened to, the people you knew. I took most of it off and put it on my laptop so i’ve been going through my old life. I completely changed once i hit university so it’s very strange to see it all laid out. Makes me miss my old friends and my old life. anyway, here’s a song that i’ve been listening to from my old playlist. Seems to fit.

Haunted by Poe

Ba da pa pa ba da pa pa…
Come here
Pretty please
Can you tell me where I am?
You won’t you say something
I need to get my bearings
I’m lost
And the shadows keep on changing

And I’m haunted
By the lives that I have loved
And actions I have hated
I’m haunted
By the lives that wove the web
Inside my haunted head
Ba da pa pa ba da pa pa…

Don’t cry,
There’s always a way
Here in November in this house of leaves
We’ll pray
Please, I know it’s hard to believe
To see a perfect forest
Through so many splintered trees
You and me
And these shadows keep on changing

And I’m haunted
By the lives that I have loved
And actions I have hated
I’m haunted
By the promises I’ve made
And others I have broken
I’m haunted
By the lives that wove the web
Inside my haunted head

Hallways… always
I’ll always love you
I’ll always need you
I’ll always want you
And I will always miss you

Ba da pa pa ba da pa pa…

Come here
No I won’t say please
One more look at the ghost
Before I’m gonna make it leave
Come here
I’ve got the pieces here
Time to gather up the splinters
Build a casket for my tears

I’m haunted
(By the lives that I have loved)
I’m haunted
(By the promises I’ve made)
I’m haunted
By the hallways in this tiny room
The echos there of me and you
The voices that are carrying this tune
Ba da pa pa…

Father :
What is it Annie?

Daughter :
You think I’ll cry? I won’t cry!
My heart will break before I cry!
I will go mad.

Review

I think this is the universe’s way of telling me i’m an idiot. Not half an hour after i whine about sucking, i get an awesome review (From a complete stranger no less) and they really liked In The Park.
Here it is for your viewing pleasure 4 hearts, Really great read.

News

I need to learn to update more. I pitched a second book to my boss and she said it sounded great. waiting for a deadline for that. it’s an f/f that’s now going terribly wrong. Initially i sent it to a friend just to see if the plot was ok and she sent me back an essay on what was wrong with it things to fix so i’m feeling a little mind-blocked (i think cock-blocked sounds better but it doesn’t quite work here).
Guess i’ll be working on that for a while in between my editing work. my author that was MIA is now back so i have her four books back on my plate whenever my boss gets around to rescheduling her releases.
In other news still having crazy dreams. Had two sexy naked dreams in a row with actors i don’t find amazingly attractive so that was interesting. last nights one sprung an urban fantasy esque plot but it’s kinda faded and me being me, i didn’t write it down.
sooo. yeah. stuff.

ETA: since when did my wordpress get linked to my twitter and facebook?? please might read this now!

Life

Weird dream last ngiht. lot’s of huge boiling over emotions and running. I remember that no one understood me and they were all angry with me i think? i hated everyone and everything so i was running to get away and to burn up my anger. It was sort of half college, half high school, and then i ended up at a beach. someone i knew from highschool followed me and comforted me which made me hugely glad. i’d missed him and was glad to know he cared. (if you still read this, yes i am refering to you.) the comfort started to lead to something more. but then there was this alien, like Alien, but different. it was trying to attack me but i kept stopping it just by shouting at it to stop. There was a weird mix of Old Friend and Alien and then i was running again. i realised i had aliens in me, hundreds of them, trying to eat me from the inside out. i knew it should hurt but i kept making it stop hurting. i was watching my belly move with all the bodies swarming around in there knowing they were going to burst out. it was horrible.

No idea what it all means but it’s stayed with me all day. maybe it means i have unresolved things that i’m running from that are trying to escape from inside of me.

or maybe i just have weird dreams.

ROW80 take two

So i mentioned before that i was participating in ROW80 round one…yeaaah that lasted about two weeks before i forgot my check in’s and my progress went to nothing.
Now that it’s over and round two is about to begin i decided i would man up (so to speak) and stick with it this time.

So my goals for round two.
-Write a minimum of two erotic shorts (<10k) for my publisher
-continue editing my novel and then carry on writing it (44/164 pages so far)
- try and do something related to writing every day.

Round two runs from april 4th until june 23rd so watch this space for progress.